the wheels just keep on turning.

so the past 2 weeks have been soooo crazy.

1) grad nite
2) 'm' party
3) 13th at clarke quay/haji lane
4) paranormal activity
5) barker carnival
6) swissotel with vern, gilda, ting and des

argh... i'm so tired la. and yet, even though i've finally started sleeping properly, i still feel ever so tired... i just wish for closure.
late nights out with the gang, stupid movies and tv dramas from 1-3 am.
2 pm wake up calls. but i am looking forward to working next week!

3 jobs!
- teachers aide
- tuition centre helper
- tuition teacher!

haha, and i did FINALLY meet up with clara this week!
we haven't seen her in soo long.

alright bbbuttttterrrr! nest week!
thanks for the table amelia!

alright. i'll blog soon. hopefully.

the revival

alright. 1.49 am.
you know, the O's have just ended and the strange thing is,
i don't feel as if its really started.
maybe its the partying, the chilling out and and those killer ass outings. with the gang.
o god, thank god for them. vern, ting, nicole, yenhua, gilda, amelia.
people who have some how stuck.

so it's such a relief. i spent half an hour today just walking along my street and guess what? i enjoyed it. as i walked i saw things in a whole new light.
don't get me wrong, i wasn't emoing or talking to myself.
i just enjoyed the cool breeze and as i chilled out at the play ground,
i reflected on everything that happened this year. all the fun, shit and experiences.
the friends, enemies and hates. yet the love runs parallel.

so i guess i am gonna miss everything. as i reach a whole new point in my life, i realise that maybe, just maybe, i'm gonna ride this through after all.

thanks for everything guys. you know who you are.

hardcore mugging.

hey guys. haha. i've been like super busy man... 2 hour nites are killing me so badly...
you have no idea how tiring it is, to try and sleep from 12.30-4 and wake up only at 6. i swear i'm surviving on adrenaline more than anything else. but good news people! i can officially get an a2 for amath! supershiok. haha. and even my chem is getting a c5. goddamn. miracles do come true. alright. i'll probably blog again only after O's.
so ciao.

a strange feeling.

hmmm... i feel really accomplished this week and i guess i realised just how close everything is.
my sleeping pattern has been seriously fucked up though. sleeping at 12 waking up at 2.30, going back to sleep at 4 and waking at 5.45... i'm just exhausted and yet, i feel at ease.
i think God made me go through a very difficult phase from the end of sec 3 to the better part of sec 4. it's going through a phase like this that really makes me see all the good things in life. i'm seeing drastic improvements in my amath. even though i've officially worked hard last week till now. i can get about 60% of the marks of both papers from the hardcore shinglee amath book. a stark improvement from my 31% for prelims. and i'm relatively amazed that i cut 8 points from MYES to prelims. it's no way near enough but it's a sign. haha.. and even though i feel the stress all the time, i thank God for people who manage to keep me happy. there's a whole bunch. the dudes, wen, james, troy, Gn, Keefe, woods, tong seng, CC, david and KF. then there's cheryl, my infamous study buddie! haha. then there's vern, Gilda and nicole. haha. i became closer friends with steph, yen hua and chelsea too! thank God for them. not to mention the church peeps.
and i'm finding a very strange feeling of enjoying doing work. it's scary. but it's true. i'm enjoying class even more now. even though it's relatively screwed up most of the time. and it's a funny feeling. i gotta feeling i may just make it to AC and i'm just mystified.

dedication.

alright, in lieu of jaz, ed & sarah's motivational speeches and encouragements. i have decided to seriously start studying hardcore and get my 10 points for O'levels.
here's the plan.
mon - 3 hrs math - 1 hr phy/chem
tue - 2 hr phy/chem - 2 hr math
wed - 2 hr phy/chem - 1 hr lit - 1 hr hist
thu - 3 hr phy/chem -2 hr math
fri - 1 hr lit - 1 hr hist -1 hr ss
sat - 2 hr math - 1 hr phy/chem
sun - anyhow whack what i'm feeling in the zone for.

alright. this includes school. please pray i stick to it. haha.
for those whom i study with, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. i'm placing the moral imperative on you dudes and dudettes to officially kick my ass and slap me silly should i, in the VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY likely event, be distracted. A.K.A "starbucks".
haha, thanks for the "VERY INSIGHTFUL" comment cheryl.

so i went to WCP today. CC outing!
today was really fun! i had like great bonding with the kids and all! haha, photos are all on facebook... some very interesting ones indeed.

yello jello stretch.

haha, alright so thursday was pretty fun.
went to clarke quay and met vern, nicole, amelia, chelsea and yen hua.
it was like 9+ so we spent 30 min trying to find the best place to sit and chill.
haha, we decided to go back to get ripped-off by yello jello... wasnt feeling very well so walked out for a breath of fresh air and had an awesome chicken kebab. seriously it was like orgasmic la. hummus and chilli topped with a load of onions.
after that i went back to see the acsi dudes walking out and chelsea and yenhua holding nicole and amelia's handbag. haha. we walked to try and find them and i ended up holding nicoles handbag... walking along the river, i then saw my uncle and panicked. haha, so chelsea and yen hua just took their time and were like lauging their asses off.
i mean who wouldnt freak if they saw their uncle along clarke quay and you're holding a bright black shiny metallic handbag.
so anyway we met Debra and gang at iguanas! haha. debra is totally awesome la seriously...
haha. treating us and all... so after i was freaking tired and went to draw money & realised i spent over $1500 the last 2 months. and i now have a balance of 194.10 in my posb. i've never seen a more depressing receipt.
then we left. WHAT AN INTERESTING CAB RIDE HOME WITH NICOLE. haha. fun stuff.
luckily you didnt get screwed by your parents la... haha. ice lemon tea and breath mints FTW.

so after O's it's gonna be like this every single day... i seriously would kill for a spot in AC la.... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

lights will guide you home.

sitting by the table,
looking out the window,
feeling the starshine.

3a.m. on the phone,
carlsberg in hand,
tell me there's more to life.

sunsets on the rooftops,
picnics by the lake,
letters of soul & strength.

recalling the life you had
retracing the steps you took
that smile, that look.

years long down the road,
life ceased it's course,
your face etched in mind.


- poem of a friend.

i thank God for vernon seriously. he's a life saver. feeling really down this 2 weeks and he was there when i called him last week and talked to him! you're an awesome best friend and i hope you know and remember that!

thanks to nicole too! haha. etiquette not to call after 10.30! haha. lesson learnt. but still you kept me company till like 1 am! haha. thanks thanks. good talk time too!

today was totally awesome.
haha. met vanessa at 11.30 at serangoon mrt!
haha, subway for lunch then "study" at starbucks!
sorry vanessa! haha, so understanding! pai seh pai seh. there were too many DISTRACTIONS!
Gilda came along and we talked about life and stuff and how it just isn't that screwed up! then we went to popular and She made me help her find some colourful filing sheets WHICH SHE DIDNT EVEN BUY...
then vanessa left and Ting came along.
ting, you're an awesome friend and all, but YOU'VE GOT TO LEARN TO KEEP YOUR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT. no bloody tact you know. haha. what a liability man.
then ting went for tuition and i decided there was no point going considering i was so off studying la...
then went to Ben & jerry's and wanted to treat Gilda some ice cream but she didnt want! haha, i guess there's a first to everything. we talked about almost everything and anything la. and i realise i really treasure her as a friend! haha, although she HARDLY PICKS UP CALLS, she's really there for me when i need her.
so today was really fun and exciting. Gilda, you really made me much much happier and hopeful! haha, your "God" talk was really a booster i guess... haha! all the morale boosting stuff you said too! thanks for everything! dont worry, one day i'll tell you all the crap that i've been through, next time yea! AND you still owe me 2 hours of phone battery life AND A PICTURE! dont forget ALL THE PRESENTS TOO!

-Jev